Sunday, October 30, 2011

Our Little Boy

Five months ago, I was standing in his room, rubbing my belly, terrified of becoming a mother. I was scared of what was coming. Not of the birth, but of...afterwards. What am I supposed to do with a baby? Everyone told me I'd be fine, but I wasn't so sure about that. I was petrified that I wouldn't have that ooey-gooey feeling all women say you get when you see your child for the first time. I was legitimately afraid that he wouldn't like me. What if I just wasn't cut out for this? Then, it happened...the switch flipped. All my previous concerns melted away...and a whole new crop grew in their place.

How do I keep him safe outside of my belly?

Is he getting enough to eat?

Is he supposed to sleep this much?

Is he still breathing?

Within a few weeks I started to mellow out. We were starting to understand each other as mother and child. We were developing our own little language. I was falling deeper and deeper in love with him.

I love his little blonde hairs,

his full, bright red lips,

his toothless smile.

I love the way he buries his head into my shoulder when someone speaks to him,

& the way his eyes seem to look deep into my soul.

I love his giggles & squeals,

& the way he wraps his arms tight around my neck when I pick him up.

I love it when he rests his head on my chest, sucks his thumb, & goes to sleep.

I love him more and more everyday.

He is my greatest accomplishment.

The past five months have flown by. I know I will soon blink and he will be all grown up. But for now, I will enjoy this time, with my sweet baby Wyatt Boy.








2 comments:

  1. The words are beautiful and the pictures are fabulous!

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